SO! First up and the most important announcement of the entire pregnancy (or I think it is anyway!). We can finally reveal the gender of our little one. :)
On another note however, we found out from the ultrasound that I fall into the 50% of women who have a low-lying placenta. It's actually normal - if the embryo implants further down, the placenta grows further down. It usually moves up in the 6 - 8th month of the pregnancy. I'm praying that my placenta moves up further along my pregnancy as well. If it doesn't I'll have to do a C-Sect as it will be blocking the baby's path during natural childbirth. I also can't do any running, swimming, jogging, cycling at all as spontaneous bleeding may occur. :( The low lying placenta probably explains the bleeding at Week 6? I'm not sure...
I'm also doing a breast scan (is this too much information?) on Saturday. I hope everything will be alright! :S Pretty worried. Not sure if I'm getting worried about nothing but really hope that everything is fine.
On my weight/body:
Routine weigh-in at the doctor says I've gained 2 kgs in the past month. From 51.95kg, I'm up to 54.00kg now. :) I'm right on track I suppose! Physically though, not much has changed, which is quite surprising. The only difference is that I've a small oblong shaped tummy now and I have to start wearing skirts and dresses. But to an outsider, it's so hard to tell I'm pregnant. Even when I catch myself in the mirror, I sometimes forget I'm pregnant! It just looks like I ate too much chocolate and have a belly. (Although I know now that the difference between a 'fat' belly and a 'pregnant' belly is that a fat belly is soft and squishy and a pregnant one is firm and hard!). My diet is fairly normal too, I get the occasional hunger pangs but I eat the normal 3 meals a day.
The most exciting thing so far in that has started to happen in the past 2 weeks is the occasional baby kicks during the day. I know when she's awake and super active because it feels like I'm being prodded from the inside. Sometimes it feels like 'pops' (not so much the flutter that people talk about though) and I know she's just kicking like crazy. It's so exciting and scary (knowing all the things that could go wrong especially with the help of technology today :S) at the same time. Some days, I just like to sit and enjoy her little kicks and movements; on other days, I get so panicky and want her to come out straight away so that I can be in control of the situation (I sound like a control freak!). Actually, when I mean control the situation, I know I really can't do anything. God has created a life form in me that only He has power to determine her gender, whether she is physically fully created, if she has any abnormalities (please no!) etc. Even after she is born, I cannot change anything that has already been created. Honestly, I've never felt so helpless in my life (which is really weird because the little one in me is so small and helpless and dependent on me too!). Just got to let go and let God take care of everything. This pregnancy is really teaching and testing me in terms of my dependence on God and I feel really tried at this time but I hope that I can continue trusting in God and letting Him take control of the situation and my emotions and just... Everything!
Kisses and hugs. x o x o