Week 32 - 34

So technically, it's now 8 months and a half months (Week 34). Time flies! Saw the doctor 2 weeks ago (11th December) after another A5 scan. Baby is doing okay - she's slightly below average on everything but at least she's within the 5th and 95th percentile. My waterbag level is low again (I think it's the stress from the exhibition we had just held) and I'm starting to feel light-headed, nauseous and tired all the time. Is this normal?

I keep thinking about my birth plan - I'm not sure whether I should do the laughing gas and then plead for the epidural when I can't take the pain anymore or just go straight for the epidural and save myself the possible nausea from the laughing gas. :S It sounds terrifying no matter what way I choose. I don't think child birth is easy but I'm still scared!

On mine and the baby's weight

Baby was 1.8kg when I went for the A5 scan 2 weeks ago (not sure how heavy she is now). I'm 61.5kg. o.0 I really don't care about the numbers anymore, just whether I feel good or not and I'm really not getting used to the fact that I can't even fit into my loosest shorts anymore (I used to be able to slide right out of them even while they were buttoned up). My thighs rub against each other in the most unbecoming manner but luckily I'm wearing long dresses to hide that fact. :(

On Pregnancy

I just spent a huge, HUGE amount of money last weekend buying everything for the little one. Her cot, her mattress, sheets, bottles etc. I'm starting to feel anxious cos our house is almost but not quite ready yet and my urgent nesting instinct has started to kick in and I feel like I NEED to get her room sorted out! (We can't move in until next weekend :().

Just hanging in there until everything is sorted.


Lots of love and good cheer. x x x

A Prayer for a Peaceful Mind

There's a lot going on right now at work and I just had a really weird and intense dream last night where I actually woke up and yelled 'Leave Right Now'. I kind of scared Nick (cos he thought I was telling him to leave) but actually it was an anxious mind worrying about work and people in a meeting that were just talking and refused to listen to me. Now, my mind is on over-drive and I'm worrying about health (am I sick? :S) and the business and just everything. 

I found this prayer online and I'm going to pray it every day and when I feel particularly uncomfortable and anxious. 

Almighty God, We bless you for our lives, we give you praise for your abundant mercy and grace we receive. We thank you for your faithfulness even though we are not that faithful to you. Lord Jesus, we ask you to give us all around peace in our mind, body, soul and spirit. We want you to heal and remove everything that is causing stress, grief, and sorrow in our lives. Please guide our path through life and make our enemies be at peace with us. Let your peace reign in our family, at our place of work, businesses and everything we lay our hands on. Let your angels of peace go ahead of us when we go out and stay by our side when we return. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Week 29! Baby update!

Okay, I have to admit, I'm in a chipper mood today. Baby was moving A LOT over the weekend (so much so that I almost feel bruised from the inside) and she's grown loads! I went for the full scan today (with doppler) again and the U/S lady was really sweet. So far, baby is average in everything (head circumference, waist circumference, weight). The notch that I mentioned in the previous post (Week 27/28) has disappeared (which is good!) and my water bag has actually grown bigger (AFI is now 7.9, 2 weeks ago it was 6.4)! My AFI is still smaller than average but the most important thing is that it has gotten bigger and baby has more space to move about. Gotta keep up with the drinking water and eating loads! 

On mine and the baby's weight

It's one of those days where I feel really comfortable in my own skin and even though I'm up another 1kg (ish). I'm no longer thinking about the numbers and just focused on feeling good and being healthy and happy. I'm now 59.35kg (this time I remembered the decimal places! ha) and the little one is 1.293kg (she's doing really well - an average baby at Week 29 is approximately 1.1kg). According to my pregnancy app, she's the size of a butternut squash. I'm also glad I still haven't gotten swollen feet yet. 

On Pregnancy

We're starting to look at booking a delivery room now (hopefully baby doesn't come out early, but if she does, at least we're prepared). The only thing is that our house isn't quite ready yet (renovations are still ongoing!) so I just hope that she comes out after the renovations are over and that I have time to go shopping and buy her stuff. I'm pretty lucky, my mother in law has gotten a bunch of stuff and some of my cousins have bought clothes already for her. She's a very lucky and blessed baby indeed. We're also starting to look at confinement packages from the hospital. My mom's gonna help me out right after I've given birth but I don't want to stress my mom out either. 

I think it's just another couple more weeks till I actually get to see my little girl. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. Especially when the doctor starts talking about contractions and when to come into the hospital! But I know that my body is built for this and God will carry me all the way through! 

God bless! x 

Thank you Mom!

I know it's highly unlikely my mom will ever read this space of mine (if she does, that's kinda scary :S). If she does actually, I'll know who ratted me out (I'm looking at you sisters!). But 26 years ago today, my mom was in the hospital, in pain, probably sweating, not looking good and probably saying a lot of swear words (not sure if that's what really happened?!). After 6 grueling hours (that sounds like ages to me btw!), out I came curious as anything (according to my dad). She labored long and hard to get me out into this world, and now that I'm going to have to face the same in a few months time, I'm terrified but absolutely grateful that my mom made it so that I can experience all the beauty this world has to offer. I hope I can hang in there for my daughter too so that she can come out and experience everything in this world! 

Thanks mom! 

Teary Mode

I honestly don't know what has gotten into me.

I'm such an emotional wreck today.

This coca cola advert made me cry and this beautiful link made it even worse! :(